Musings.

in reality- things turn all the way. and the way it turns, it just hits you.

and that made you even hate more people- you know, you feel so insecure and things like that.

you see, i’m a a typical 17 year old kid with no ambition, no real life and i couldn’t let the parentals know that i smoke. i have no intention of doing stuffs that i apparently didnt know. i don’t see why you apparently express the word hate into words but man, i understand. if the prolems involves parentals, then that got nothing to do with me.

ofcourse i love them, but i don’t see why i need to be included. that goes to my little sibs. i don’t see why we needed to me told off too.

i don’t freaking mind of anything- because im not the one who controls any ones life. and i don’t even see why both sides have to be so karas and i was pissed actually.

i don’t get why things just turned to be something.. i don’t know, bullshit? and i don’t fucking see why the stuffs tends so revolve and stop at this kind of point.

i don’t see why the hate expression need to be said on some place that i could discover just like that.

so, if you don’t really like what’ve happen, why don’t you just come and clean? i swear i tried to hard to convince the parental, and i swear its so hard that i felt like strangling them to death.

i couldnt deal with these stuffs really- so what i’ll do? i shutted up. i can’t be bothered to show any fake shits to things like that- it’s pointless.

and if you think you met the sickest family you ever had- well yeh, probably you had and i hope you could live with it.

i am not being that sarcastic- but i just couldnt change things to the better. i couldnt convince enough- and i hope you could understand.

so far, its me and my sister knew about this.

man i suck at this kind of thing